Thursday, June 12, 2008

tiny one

Tiny
Grey
Limp (rag doll)
Pump
Motionless
Trying hard
Too easy
Pump
Chaos
Where are the tools?
What is the dose?
pumping...always pumping
Harder than I thought...
No, not harder, more tiring.
Shock
Hoping
Knowing
Keep going, keep going
Do you want a break?
pump, pump...faster
forearms tired
can i really be breaking a sweat?
tiny, so tiny
still grey
everything is changing
losing hope
pumping, pump, pumping
"let me do that for you"
thinking i should go, finding out there are only a few minutes left...
...to try
"let me go again"
pump, pump, pump
eyes closed
still motionless
still grey
still tiny

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